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Wednesday, July 04, 2007
this is so weird...i cant find the colour so that some of my words are in colour,other than black.T.T consequences of starving yourself... It seeems so weird that recently i'm starving myself.i dun eat solid food for breakfast,(sometimes yes)either drink or sushi for recess,maybe drink again for lunch,maybe i won't eat.And then hours later...i started to find food. It didn't seems that bad until today...ate 2 super small muffins for breakfast,lemon barley drink for recess,and NOTHING for lunch... All the way until cca ends at 3.30pm,i then drag myself out of the gz room and rush back to class.i couldn't concentrate during cca,due to the pain... went back class...then go canteen get some food,finally...but then better than not eating anything,the pain did not go away even after i ate A BALANCED MEAL...(only a burger abd milo...) i stared at the size of my class tee...it totally shocked me inside out...'XS'!!!EXTRA SMALL SEY,somemore ym's abd jer2's size was MEDIUM.i then reflected what was my past actions that landed me in this state.i'm 4kg lighter than the weight meant for my height.i'm not very tall though.i seems to have either shrunk or not grow at all.why am i so short? i was cm away from being taller than my sister since last year, but until now, its still the same,she's still taller. Other than if i can sleep earlier,i ought to have a balanced diet...now where do i start? i'm freaking out,its 8 days away and i seems to have forgotton everything...my scales...how am i going to pass? 8 days still got some time to practice...hopefully this goes well... this song ironic-its part of our life.especially when i'm late for school and ta-da! A traffic jam. The tension of getting the pink form freaks me out,especially with my bad record of 5 times...T.T |
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❝ A bee is attracted to a prettiest flower;
A girl is attracted to a sweetest boy;
I am attracted to the heartless you. ❞
